doubtful certainties

... boredom

this survey was posted on the bulletin but I need to use something for my blog so this is more like a psuedo post... Oh, and I'm bored to death right now here at work.

1.Who knows the real you?
-- a very few people, but entirely, i think si Abbie

2. When was the last time you went out?
-- out out? my gosh, leyntot's birthday. a little more than a month ago. but I'm going out tomorrow!

3.If you could kiss anyone who would it
be?
-- my baby, durr.

4. What song are you listening to?
-- right now, Ever Ever After by Carrie Underwood. not exactly the type of artist i listen to but it's from the Enchanted soundtrack.

5. who does it remind you of?
-- the song? my baby ; )

6. Last movie you watched?
-- in the theater... Jumper i think.

7. Which of your friends live closest
to you?
-- sila leyn and mylu. their only 5-6 blocks away from our apartment but i haven't seen them since we last went out...

8. What is your favorite shirt?
-- any shirt that makes me look skinny...

9. Do you drive?
-- yeah

10. What did you do yesterday?
-- worked. that's pretty much it.

11. Do you wear contacts or glasses?
-- yes and yes, i'd be walking into walls if i didnt.

12. Do you trust your friends?
-- yea, i wouldn't consider them "friends" if i didnt trust them.

13. Who was the last person to call
you?
-- Abbie

14.What annoys you?
-- people who dont know how to drive. ignorant people who run their mouths off. the list could go on forever.

15. Do you want multiple piercing?
-- mutiple piercings, you mean? yea, before. now, dont really care anymore.

16. Your fav song in your player?
-- right now, If Only from the Little Mermaid broadway musical.

17. Last time you went to the mall?
-- damn... cant remember. does the outlet count? if it does, then this past weekend.

18. What was the last thing you ate?
-- burger, fries from mckie d's and pomegranate paradise from jamba juice

19. Which of your friends would make
the best roommate?
-- dunno... i guess whomever can stand me

20. Last thing you purchased?
-- smoothies from jamba juice

21. Last vacation you were in?
-- snowboarding at Mammoth.

22. Do people ever spell your name
wrongly?
-- Ye-ah. the guy from jamba juice labeled the drinks with DANISE.

23. What's the last compliment you
received?
-- the lady who cuts Abbie's hair always greeted me with "Hello, beautiful." does that count as a compliment?

24. Who was the last friend you hugged?
-- cant remember.

25. Which celeb are you eye candying?
-- Leonardo DiCaprio. We just saw The Departed again last night kasi eh.

26. What's next on your wishlist?
-- the Coach messenger bag at the outlet.

27. Which band's concert would you want
to watch?
-- I'd be cool to see the Killers...

28. What colour are your nails?
-- no nail polish this time... toenails though, french-as always.

29. Date down a special day for you?
-- date down? huh? i guess it makes sense... Oct. 18

30. In just one word, describe
yourself.
-- unconventional

... observations

well, it's 1:43pm on a Friday here at work and I don't have the slightest inclination to work anymore so I'm just going to ramble on a few random things that have been going through my mind lately.

• people walking around with earphones permanently stuck to their ears.  - i just don't get it. do you really need to constantly listen to music? seriously? or does it help overpower the vioces in your head? ok, great example... we're (abbie and I) having dimsum with my little sister, dad and stepmom. My little sister is eating with her earphones on listening to her ipod. come on. maybe i'm getting older or something but that really bugs me. bad part is, no one noticed (or cared) but me. well, of course i told her to take it off. moving on...
  
• "w00t" is Merriam Webster's word of 2007 - yeeeaaahhhh. i know, right? don't believe me? go to m-w.com.  isn't it such a positive reflection of our generation? NOT. oh, and that isn't a typo, it uses zeros istead of O's. ok, to those not acquainted with the gamer vernacular, it's from MMO's or massively multiplayer online games. it's leet or elite speak. yup, western civilization is steadily declining right before our eyes. damn online games.
  
• Mythbusters is addicting - i don't know about you but I'm hooked! also, they always have these marathons which i just love! AND it's not a complete waste of time, you're learning too.  notice my shoutout? it's from one of co-hosts of the show. I hope it never ever gets cancelled!
  
• America's Best Dance Crew - haven't seen an episode? you should see the Filipino group (at least, i think they're mostly filipinos) and their "superman" stunt. It's just too damn good. Their task was to seem like they were defying gravity and they were soo creative and imaginative. i bet it's on youtube or the mtv site. search it. now. while in the topic of dance shows, it's very very similar to "so you think you can dance," right? just an observation. (oh if you haven't caught now, i'm a frustrated dancer, i like dance shows - so freakin shoot me ok?)

Ok, that's it for now. Need to pretend to be busy again. adios!

... my history? really? no, not really

i've had this in my drafts folder for a while... just never had time to actually post it.

HISTORY:
01. Raised in?
** BF Homes, P'que

02. Planned baby?
** Nu-uh

03. Birth month?
** May

04. Any siblings?
** Uh-huh... 4 to be specific

05. Youngest or oldest?
** Oldest or Eldest, ay ewan, pinakamatanda!

06. Hair color?
** Black with strands of gray hair =S

09. Eye color?
** Brown/black

10. Mood?
** Excited for New Years!

11. Height?
** 5'2 and 3/4 (or I could say 5'3 but I would be lying!)

12 Lefty/righty?
**Righty baby

L OVE LIFE:

Do you remember your first real
relationship?
** Yeah, durr... I'm still in it

Ha ve you ever been heartbroken?
** Who hasn’t?

Are you liking someone now?
** No, not "liking," more like "loving"

Have you ever fallen for a friend?
** Unfortunately

Are you afraid of commitment?
** Well, just the ULTIMATE commitment

Do you believe in love at first sight?
** No, it's sentimental bullcrap

THIS OR THAT:
01. Love or money?
** Hmmm… hard question... sige na nga, love na lang! lol!

02. Hard liquor or beer?
** BOTH

03 . One night stands or relationships?
** Relationships of course!

04 . Television or internet?
** TV or more like DVR, I think it's one of the best inventions EVER!

05 . Pepsi or coke?
** Coke

06. Fun night out or romantic night
in?
** I think I've mastered balancing both (at least I like to think that I have)

07 Chocolate or vanilla?
** Choco-latte

08. Phone or in person?
** uhhh.... what?

09. friendster or myspace?
** friendster... cause myspace is blocked dito sa work, and I rarely go online sa bahay

10. Family or friends?
** To me, my friends are family so family it is then! = )

HAVE YOU EVER:
01. Have you ever been caught sneaking
out?
** I think so...

02. Have you ever skinny dipped?
** Not yet ; )

03. Have you ever done something you
regret?
**  Little stupid things here and there but nothing major

04. Have you ever been on a house
boat?
** Nope

05. Have you ever finished a novel in
a day?
** Uh-huh, I'm a dork that way… one of them is The Da Vinci Code - twice

07. Have you ever been streaking?
** No... and I never plan to

08. Have you ever been drunk?
** Yea, but most of the time people can't tell cause there's no difference... I'm still obnoxious either way

09 . Have you ever fallen in public?
**haha… yes, I have… numerous times…

10. Have you ever fallen asleep in
class?
** Yea, but it was while watching this stupid Westen in Cinema class so the professor didn’t even notice

ARE YOU:
01. Are you missing someone right now?
** People not just "one"

02. Are you talking to anyone?
** nope... I'm all alone in our department today. it's lonely = (

03. Are you German?
** ngek no...

04. Are you Italian?
** uhhhh.... no

05. Are you French?
** no

06. Are you Russian?
** no

07 . Are you Norwegian?
** no

08. Are you Lebanese?
** no

08 : Are you CHINESE?
** no (haha! stupid magbilang dalawa yung eight! i didn't write this survey by the way... oh and I didn't change it for authenticity)

09. Are you a silly person?
** Not like clown silly, but yes sometimes, when I’m in the mood

10 . Are your parents still married?
**  Nope

11. Do you have a low self esteem?
** I would like to think that I don’t

RANDOM QUESTIONS:
01. Do you get depressed about things
easily?
** not depressed as in Zoloft depressed, but I do I get frustrated very easily

02. Are you comfortable with the way you look?
** Thank God I am now... come to think of it, I really had no choice!

03. How do you dress?
** depends where I’m going, kung work, pretty boring… but if I’m going out, daring! lol

04. What do you want to be when you grow up?
** I’m grown up already and I still have no idea…

05. Favorite season?
** Fall, cause it’s so purrrtty!

06. Favorite flower?
** No preference, just getting flowers no matter what kind is nice

07. Favorite colors?
** Basic black

08. Are you a vegetarian?
**I’m a freakin carnivore

09. Current song your listening to?
** Wala right at this moment... I was listening to Marie' Digby earlier though

... funny quotes

Here are a few random things that people have said to me through the years…

"Bumili ka ng common sense dun sa Tropical!" (2^nd Year HS, Veritas) Miss Laly Santos telling me to shut up during what I think was a Chemistry exam that I incessantly complained about. This was when she didn’t like me yet… I eventually grew on her.

"Maganda ka lang ngayon, pero pag-tanda mo pa-panget ka na!" (Im guessing 3^rd Grade, Veritas) Fred Suarin. I don’t remember why, I must have been pestering him somehow. O, ano Fred, totoo ba?

"Can you be my girlfriend?” Anthony Oquindo at 5 years old I think… His Kuya Abbie tells him, “No” and then he replies, “But you have to share!” That was when he was interested in older women. lol.

“Did you come from Papa’s tummy then?” Keana Agoncillo at 5 years old, too. My little sister trying to understand how we were sisters since we told her that I didn’t come from her mom’s stomach.

... guilty pleasures

Wow, it's been a while... a loooong while.

I was just thinking about my ultimate guilty pleasures...

• watching Hanna Montana and The Suite Life of Zac and Cody
  - haha, the story lines are cutesy but who cares? remember when our only problems in life were boys and shopping money? oh, how the years have passed....
• voluntary reading
  - yea, reading novels is a luxury for me... textbooks are the required reading materials now
• spicy nacho Doritos
  - lol. im a junk food junkie, i could live off junk food. lately ive been buying those "baked" crap that dont taste like the original at all (well, except for the cheetos i guess) anyways, it's always a treat when i buy the "regular" chips.
• the daily crossword on Merriam-Webster.com
  - a little dorky, i admit, but it's fun and it wakes my brain up here at work. i've never completed the damn thing on my own (you can cheat and have letters revealed and such) but i always feel like im cheating "the boss" here at work when i do it.
• pedicures and waxing
  - i absolutely love the feeling of walking into the nail salon and knowing that im going to feel 100% better when i walk out.
• stuffed jalapenos from Jack in the Box
  - a breaded bundle of mucho caliente jalapeno with a silky cream cheese filling dipped in luscious buttermilk ranch. damn, what's not to love? i try to foget the gazillions of calories in each bite when i eat it.
• OMG how could i forget... "Rock of Love with Bret Michaels"
  - no reason, i just think it's fun to watch all the girls jump through hoops to win the attention of some has-been they don't know a thing about... fascinating, isn't it?

... that's all i can think of right now, this all sprung up because of the Hanna Montana confession i made during lunch.

... epiphanies

(I know I haven't been blogging lately, been real busy... thought this was blog material)

I've been going to a community college for approximately 2½ years now. At first I was a wuss and took 2 classes at a time, thinking that transferring would take years in the making. Last fall, I started taking 3 classes at a time because I don’t feel comfortable admitting that it took me 4 years to complete my general education transfer requirements. Now, I'm on the right track, and I have every intention of transferring to CSUN next spring. Since then, I've been noticing things about myself, which solidified the fact that I really really really needed to transfer.

Here are the few reasons that made me realize that I desperately needed to transfer:
1. I knew exactly where all the buildings of my new classes were, even the specific classroom - by heart. For me, this is an incredibly bad sign. Have I been there that long?
2. I was the one giving other students advice on which professors were good or bad. "Oh yea, I've taken that class already… take this professor…"
3. I'm running out of classes to choose from my General Certification Plan; I've managed to check almost all of the checkboxes and I'm still here.
4. I'm way past the 101's.
5. I know where all the good overlooked parking spots are. (Example: Where the broken meters are in the metered parking, which are way closer to the buildings and all you need is your regular permit.)
6. I know all where most of the shortcuts are to get to class.
7. I know where the close restrooms are, whatever classroom I'm in.
8. In the first week of the semester, I knew not to attempt to go in the Student's Store nor the Business office. (This may seem like common sense now, but in the beginning I didn’t know any better.)

I could just be a fast learner and incredibly observant… but either way, I'm taking 4 classes now to make sure I have enough credits to transfer - finally.

... think fast survey

Answered as quickly and honestly as I can: Think Fast Survey

1. My ex is still..
breathing??

2. I am listening to..
Thank Goodness - Wicked.

3. Maybe I should..
go ask where we're going to lunch.

4. I love..
my baby and my ipod

5. My best friend(s)..
is in a land far far away..

6. I don't understand..
the inner bureaucracies of my department

7. I lost..
nothing, wow, that's a first =)

8. People believe..
in the goodness of other people – at least I hope so

9. The meaning of my screen name is..
none of that screen name crap, I use my name or a combination of my first and last name and that's it

10. Love is..
overrated, not to sound cynical or anything... but I AM in love though

11. Somewhere, someone is..
having the time of their life

12. I will always..
miss my hometown wherever I end up

13. Forever seems..
waaay to long

14. I never ever want to..
be the last to know (anything)

15. My cell phone is..
all busted and in great need of a replacement

16. When I wake up in the morning..
I count how many days left till friday

17. I get annoyed when..
people are so freaking ignorant

18. Parties are..
a very good reason to drink and drink and drink

19. My pet(s) is/are..
gizmo, he's not REALLY mine though.

20. Kisses are the best when..
your eyes are shut tight

21. Today I..
am excited cause my beb is going home - finally

22. Tomorrow I will..
be off from work and will be spending much needed time with my mahal

23. I really want..
to eat sinigang, or any Filipino home cooked meal

... my ode to my Baby

I just realized that I haven't posted much about my family in my blog. It is intentional and for very good reason. Abbie has told me that one of the boxes he needed to take back home was inadvertently turned into somewhat of a fan. "Pamaypays" in Tagalog. My story ends there. Abbie has been incredibly sketchy about details but honestly, he need not elaborate. I am very aware with the quirks of my family. Now I wish I'd warned him. "Tread lightly my love because if you think you're on solid ground with them, you are greatly mistaken because the ground turns into quicksand and you'll be sucked in, the same way a blackhole in space eats everything it encounters and you eventually find yourself in a completely different dimension," I should I have told him. Harsh? Yeah right, that's actually an understatement. Oh, my baby, I wish I could have prepared you more - you poor, poor, poor, poor thing. He says he has more stories and now he is thankful that I'm somewhat close to normal, well, as normal as I can possibly become given the state of my oh so less than perfect family. Me, I've mastered the art of repression, I pride myself on having a selective memory. I salute you beb, for your patience and kind heart but feel sorry for you at the same time, because if you didn't love me, you wouldn't have been exposed to the rare specie of people I call family.

... "you move too fast"

this was forwarded to me the other day, just thought it was pretty.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin. ~anonymous~

... beauty+love

Quote from "The Truth About Cats and Dogs:"

Brian: "You know how someone's appearance can change the longer you know them? How a really attractive person, if you don't like them, can become more and more ugly; whereas someone you might not have even have noticed... that you wouldn't look at more than once, if you love them, can become the most beautiful thing you've ever seen. All you want to do is be near them."

Do you love someone because they're beautiful? Or are they beautiful because you love them? I was watching this movie over the weekend and this quote struck a chord, it's just so perfect it's freaky, it can't be any truer.